Feeling super sure this would be something I would be so keen to get my teeth stuck into, I'm not sure why I feel like this. Is it because I feel it will get a poor response? Like, we all work so hard (with little direction) simply to get a poor mark. Perhaps it has knocked the stuffing out of me. Perhaps it is more simple than that, like I have family stuff taking my mental energy.
Constantly in the back of my mind I worry about them. As well as this, it's not like I desperately need this qualification to do what I want to do. So why make myself miserable.
Deciding I needed a mindset shift, this is what I decided.
The essays and reports I write will be going on my blog - amazing - as I love blogging and it will also be my work so can go towards something better. I also am spending a little time thinking of things I would hate to do rather more than writing this essay. We have come up with so many suggestions, so many jobs which would have me thankful for sitting here in my luxury cabin with my Yankee Candle alight writing at my best computer twin screens.
Darkness begins to fall. My daughter has a kidney infection which i needed to diagnose and treat, allowing me a distraction.
4 sub headings sit on my otherwise blank Word document.
Reading government white papers isn't my favourite thing. My thing is one to one motivation. "You can do this! Just do it."
Why not motivate myself?
The calendar tells me we have our last lecture in 13 weeks. Counting down...
