Yes, this is totally crazy but I have been offered an MA.
Not an MSc - nope. Well, one of those too. But also an MA.
Dropping my daughter off to college I noticed an email pop up on my phone, it was one I had been waiting for.
"Hang on, just read this with me."~ I requested. And in my head I read silently - We are delighted to offer you an unconditional offer on our MA Creative Writing - Creative Non fiction.
Squealing from deep within my gut I felt thise was 100% the news I had been waiting for. News that filled my soul with deep and meaningful.....
Thursday 25 February 2021
Journal - feeling so magical
Thank goodness you guys are way off in the future. This means I have somewhere I can write about stuff that oh my goodness is blowing my mind.
More of a journal type post here, I'm about to talk about my uni work and some other magical things. You see, I'm pretty much a changed woman. I hope this feeling stays this way. I love it. I love life. I love myself.
Being single for some time now has been such a wonderful experience and the timing has been more than fabulous. I love it. Thinking I could get my head down and work a little harder on my uni projects, it's just not happening.
Blogging, yes, setting up the new society, yes. Uni work is elusive just now. So I sit at 5am, unable to sleep more than 4 hours once again (ketosis does this to me and I'm currently intermittent fasting) thinking 'i should write that iron and colorectal cancer essay' and there is just no flow.
5 weeks and we are pretty much done. 5 weeks. This is crazy. Why can't I focus? I must focus.
I tell you why. Other than not really feeling overly motivated at uni (although they think my work might be publishable which is amazing) I'm just feeling so different in myself. It's almost like uni has served its purpose now. My mental health is in a new place, I'm losing weight rapidly, loving how I'm feeling and generally I'm feeling just a bit more sassy.
Recently, some welcome attention has come my way from a superbly handsome man. Clever, funny, stunning. A renewed hope of a life next to someone wonderful after being quite sure I had done all my loving. Obviously I can say nothing elsewhere on my work but here, you are 3 years ahead. What's not to say it worked out and as you are reading this he and I are beginning our happy ever after? The thought alone has me feeling totally magical. All around me I can feel the divine workings of something bigger than my human self. Blessed...
More of a journal type post here, I'm about to talk about my uni work and some other magical things. You see, I'm pretty much a changed woman. I hope this feeling stays this way. I love it. I love life. I love myself.
Being single for some time now has been such a wonderful experience and the timing has been more than fabulous. I love it. Thinking I could get my head down and work a little harder on my uni projects, it's just not happening.
Blogging, yes, setting up the new society, yes. Uni work is elusive just now. So I sit at 5am, unable to sleep more than 4 hours once again (ketosis does this to me and I'm currently intermittent fasting) thinking 'i should write that iron and colorectal cancer essay' and there is just no flow.
5 weeks and we are pretty much done. 5 weeks. This is crazy. Why can't I focus? I must focus.
I tell you why. Other than not really feeling overly motivated at uni (although they think my work might be publishable which is amazing) I'm just feeling so different in myself. It's almost like uni has served its purpose now. My mental health is in a new place, I'm losing weight rapidly, loving how I'm feeling and generally I'm feeling just a bit more sassy.
Recently, some welcome attention has come my way from a superbly handsome man. Clever, funny, stunning. A renewed hope of a life next to someone wonderful after being quite sure I had done all my loving. Obviously I can say nothing elsewhere on my work but here, you are 3 years ahead. What's not to say it worked out and as you are reading this he and I are beginning our happy ever after? The thought alone has me feeling totally magical. All around me I can feel the divine workings of something bigger than my human self. Blessed...
Thursday 18 February 2021
We have all had enough.
It's no exaggeration to say I feel university is stealing away my life.
What is the point in spending all this time working hard on something for nothing?
We get rubbish marks back, heck I even found out there are several people didn't pass last year and have to retake. Why are they making this all so hard for us to do well?
Science we have been brainwashed with isn't something that resonates with my soul. Like the set point theory. If you gain weight, you programme your body then to always gain back that weight. You can never be slim long term again. Hmm. This I do not believe. IF someone has that belief then sure, they will remain overweight forever. Yet you need to change, to do things differently. I DO believe in diets and doing something dramatic to lose weight. Then maintain it by watching closely.
There are so many contradictories. They show us photos of one crisp, detailing how many calories this is extra we can eat each day and how much weight that adds up to over one year. Then we are kind of told to just give up trying because of the set point.
Remember back in the 1970s/80s we were told to stop eating fat. EAT LOW FAT. Everything was all about low fat. Now of course we know all those low fat foods tasted so bad we were eating the fat replacement 'sugar' and hence have an epidemic of obesity and diabetes type 2. Now we are encouraged to eat a mediterranean diet which is higher in 'good' fats as we call them. So the science was wrong. Proves it happens.
Yet woe betide me if I argue with the science. Or talk about faddy diets or the latest craze (some of them can be crazy, we all know that) - I could get struck off from the register.
So what am I thinking?
I was signing up to help people. To encourage people to take control of their health. I sense none of this course is directing us there. What is going on? We have been told nothing about registration, we have touched not ONE piece of food. No cooking talk, not really much food or ingredients talk, it's deeper than that. I chose the wrong course. This course is for people wanting to be academics or working in a lab testing foods and products. Or researchers.
Ok so I am happy to think about doing the research within the health issues I have known about and finding which diets are best suited to those. For instance, Inflammatory bowel disease...I know I have helped myself here. A different diet has definitely helped.
Those who I speak to in depth on this course all feel the same. None of us want to continue. Yet there is SO much work to do.
I am at a place of wanting to get my health back on track, start getting things into place that I know will benefit my future career. Feeling like I want to argue the system just makes me seem negative and obstructive. It's not that, I promise you. I just am way too heart led to be that person. Loving people into success is my thing. How the heck can I fit that into this degree?
What is the point in spending all this time working hard on something for nothing?
We get rubbish marks back, heck I even found out there are several people didn't pass last year and have to retake. Why are they making this all so hard for us to do well?
Science we have been brainwashed with isn't something that resonates with my soul. Like the set point theory. If you gain weight, you programme your body then to always gain back that weight. You can never be slim long term again. Hmm. This I do not believe. IF someone has that belief then sure, they will remain overweight forever. Yet you need to change, to do things differently. I DO believe in diets and doing something dramatic to lose weight. Then maintain it by watching closely.
There are so many contradictories. They show us photos of one crisp, detailing how many calories this is extra we can eat each day and how much weight that adds up to over one year. Then we are kind of told to just give up trying because of the set point.
Remember back in the 1970s/80s we were told to stop eating fat. EAT LOW FAT. Everything was all about low fat. Now of course we know all those low fat foods tasted so bad we were eating the fat replacement 'sugar' and hence have an epidemic of obesity and diabetes type 2. Now we are encouraged to eat a mediterranean diet which is higher in 'good' fats as we call them. So the science was wrong. Proves it happens.
Yet woe betide me if I argue with the science. Or talk about faddy diets or the latest craze (some of them can be crazy, we all know that) - I could get struck off from the register.
So what am I thinking?
I was signing up to help people. To encourage people to take control of their health. I sense none of this course is directing us there. What is going on? We have been told nothing about registration, we have touched not ONE piece of food. No cooking talk, not really much food or ingredients talk, it's deeper than that. I chose the wrong course. This course is for people wanting to be academics or working in a lab testing foods and products. Or researchers.
Ok so I am happy to think about doing the research within the health issues I have known about and finding which diets are best suited to those. For instance, Inflammatory bowel disease...I know I have helped myself here. A different diet has definitely helped.
Those who I speak to in depth on this course all feel the same. None of us want to continue. Yet there is SO much work to do.
I am at a place of wanting to get my health back on track, start getting things into place that I know will benefit my future career. Feeling like I want to argue the system just makes me seem negative and obstructive. It's not that, I promise you. I just am way too heart led to be that person. Loving people into success is my thing. How the heck can I fit that into this degree?
Saturday 6 February 2021
Year 3 going swimmingly?
Year 3 is well and truly in swing now.
Is it going well? ~I would like to say yes. I'm feeling so really. Typing here on an unfamiliar keyboard with big ol' keys (as opposed to my little Mac ones) while drinking my coffee kind of suggests I can't keep away from the place.
Usually, I would be taking this time to walk my fluffy dog and take him into Starbucks, using their wi-fi and dog friendly service to begin a week of catching up on coursework. Yet the grey clouds built hard and fast and I left Harley pining at the front door while I grabbed a hooded coat to protect me from the rain. Leaving to take my daughter to the college close by, I decided to head on in here and start an update for my PDP.
Loving to write, I had a very interesting conversation with some collegues on SAturday as we worked the university open day in our ambassador role.
"Maybe I chose the wrong degree." As those words left my mouth I actually shocked myself.
WAnting to be a dietitian is a life long dream. Yet. This was to work with people, be empathetic and help them with their life struggles. I am not sure I can see this happening now with the route my career seems to be naturally flowing. Partly due to the lack of interaction with the members of the public. This course isn't about that.
Strangely, I feel life definitely takes its own twists and turns in order to keep me on my toes
Is it going well? ~I would like to say yes. I'm feeling so really. Typing here on an unfamiliar keyboard with big ol' keys (as opposed to my little Mac ones) while drinking my coffee kind of suggests I can't keep away from the place.
Usually, I would be taking this time to walk my fluffy dog and take him into Starbucks, using their wi-fi and dog friendly service to begin a week of catching up on coursework. Yet the grey clouds built hard and fast and I left Harley pining at the front door while I grabbed a hooded coat to protect me from the rain. Leaving to take my daughter to the college close by, I decided to head on in here and start an update for my PDP.
Loving to write, I had a very interesting conversation with some collegues on SAturday as we worked the university open day in our ambassador role.
"Maybe I chose the wrong degree." As those words left my mouth I actually shocked myself.
WAnting to be a dietitian is a life long dream. Yet. This was to work with people, be empathetic and help them with their life struggles. I am not sure I can see this happening now with the route my career seems to be naturally flowing. Partly due to the lack of interaction with the members of the public. This course isn't about that.
Strangely, I feel life definitely takes its own twists and turns in order to keep me on my toes
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