Exam time! Hooray!!!

Can I please bottle that feeling?

Not the feeling you have pre-exam but that feeling where you could happily punch the air with joy.
Knowing you've worked hard, put in the hours, remembered everything and generally been overly a cool geek in order to answer the questions.

Sitting at the desk, reading the paper in front of you.  Knowing you have seen these questions posted before.  Yes!  You know some answers.


This may just be enough to pass.

Year 1 and this is what I need to do.  To pass.   This is the advice I have had from those who know such things.  After a difficult year so far,  I am so proud of myself that I haven't given up and thrown in the proverbial towel.  Imagine.  Being so super disappointed with myself.

So what have I learnt by sticking with it this year?  I have learnt that university is not for the feint hearted.  There is plenty of study to be done outside of the lectures.  In fact I have learnt more by myself in the library than in those lectures.  Perhaps because my hearing has let me down after my previous surgery on it.  

Year 2 will see me working more efficiently in my paid work and spending longer hours in the library.  Hoping to get my twins through their driving tests and on the road as soon as I can so I can stop playing at taxi driver.  This is such a pleasure for me. I love being there for my children yet everything is too much.  I am the first to admit this as I type faster and faster across these keyboard letters in preparation for getting myself back behind the wheel and onto another school run.  

Still, I am left wondering what the future will hold. I am definitely sure I would love to work self employed and preferably online.  Although at times, people seem super keen on what I have to show in the way of photographs which is the strangest thing.  Perhaps as this is just something to look at without too much thought.  Should I do something with that?  I'm undecided.  Perhaps with this also in tow, it could be a paid hobby.

Food wise, my passion still lies with helping those with issues in the gut department.  Allergies are becoming huge.  What can I do with that?
My VLOGs in other countries are very popular.  Is there a way in which I can tap into UK holiday companies?  Go and review the facilities for gluten free and dairy free ranges?

The world is at my feet.  Meanwhile, I will continue to try and discover the central dogma of molecular biology while I write an essay and prepare for Biochemistry exam on Friday.  Already I have a 41.5% mark (a pass) but would like to aim higher than this.  Let's crack out a nice 60-70%.  Come on.  You can do this!

Really losing it - poor results

Ok sit tight for a bumpy ride on this blog.


There is  a desperate need and desire inside to actually share a load which is a burdensome load.  Things at university are not going well.

Last year in London, I was an A student.  Except for chemistry which was tricky.  Then I still passed with 56%.

This year, not so. 

i'm struggling with silly results and if I pass, I will only just pass.  This is not the way I operate.

Results today were from a nutrition essay.  Nutrition.  And Essay.  My thing.  My thing?
The title was "What are the role of

Sunny outside, revising inside

Yes, I woke excited for a day of study.  I do love it.  I really do.  So why am I so down on myself?

Why do I feel like I can't do it/ shouldn't do it/ won't do it?

At the end of the day, I would love to be Dr Usher.  Have that Harley Street clinic and likely travel for holiday companies and review gluten free food facilities.  Well, I think I would like to do that anyhow...

Just for today, I will learn some new things I haven't learnt properly before.

Just for today....